Dear diary,again & again moi parents give me empty promises...but de worst empty promise tat dey ever made to me was dey promise to get me a puppy if i could get into bpghs...i show them tat i could...but dey say," Ginne, now u r in sec sku...dere alot of stuffs 4 u 2 do...so u might nt hv de tym to look after a dog...so wait until u sec 4 o'level over then we will get u one..." after working hard for sooo long..& dis is wat dey tell me...if dis is wat u r going 2 say...y promise me in de 1st place? u noe how hurting tat is? frm young till onw, i hv alwaes wanted a dog...so when u told me tat...i was very happy...even though i hv no confidence of getting into bp...Bp wasnt de sku tat i wanted to go...but bcoz of de dog and u callin all de way frm bali saying, " how can u hv no confidence in urself? u c ur sis...she wanna go oso no chance...how can u give up tis chance?" fine i decided to give it a try...but dis sku juz sux...it wasnt at all de sku tat i wanted to go...all dey care was academic results...i hate studying...so y send me 2 such a gd sku for? then u tell me u wasnt gettin me a dog...my heart shattered at tat moment...i told myself nvr to trust u again...y7 do u hv to promise sumting again...u say," fine, if u can gd results 4 end of year exams...i will get u 2 guinea pigs!" i wanna believe in u but i cant...coz u hv break my heart once...i wanna trust u but how do i noe whether u r making an empty promise again? pls stop promising me stuffs...pls stop....
what we could have been, 6:54 PM.
Dear diary,juz finish dinner...came bac frm vball around 7pm...finally...i m bac early...now stink lyk hell...haben bathe...too lazy le...my legs went wobbly sia...todae do lots of legs exercise...do five flower jump...jump over de bench...vampire...superman....hao peng you...legs racing...& lots of crap stuff...if u dunno wat all tat is...i can teach u...muahahahaha...my couz dog came to my hse to stay on mon...she is staying 4 two weeks...coz my couz is going to hong kong...haha...her name is call duski..or kiki...she very cute...always jumping on me...licking me....haha...going to bring her walk walk on sat or sun...too bad all kiki's pics is in my phone...or i will put up here...tinkin of him...dunno how he is doing....haiz haiz...so confused....
what we could have been, 4:30 AM.
Dear diary,
yoz!!! yest went out wif moi sec sku fwens...take anot of neos sia...& 1st tym take wif guys...woah...here r sum of the pics...
de gal bside me cute rite? her name is aixin...lots of ppl lyk her...dun drool on ur keybord, kkaes? hahax...
dis 3 r de fun one....all very cute...hehex...
then dis r de galz pic...all very pretty...too bad my scanner nt very gd...anot can scan beta de..haiz haiz..actually gt more de...but cant put le...nvm de others nt veri nice oso...took at de machine at timezone...so hapi...went shopping for cheering com stuff...found dis really cute hand fan wif s'pore flag on it at daiso...hahax & found red pom pom...yay yay...finally hv sum confidence in cheering com le...muahahahaha...jia you!!! hope de class will coorperate too!!!!
haiz haiz...juz heard gt trainin on mon, tues & thurs...sad sia...haiz haiz...how to survive...sure get scolding de....muz control...cant let vlee take over my fate in vball...heard tat nxt wk got friendly match...oso nt i play...lucky or sure lose de...my 1st ball oso fail...haiz haiz...going to hv moi dinner...gtg le...bb
what we could have been, 4:02 AM.
Dear diary,todae was 1 of the worst vball training eva...in fact...wheneva my coach train us...is alwaes de worst...train 2-7...tat i dun mind...but de fact tat he dun give us water break 4 de last 2+ hrs...& train us damn tough...muz do de jiao bu 4 de forward backward 100 tyms...each tym we dun hit de ball properly...muz do another 100....my legs totally went jelly...then scold my fren stupid woman...& scold me and moi other fren retards..woah...if we r retards wun u b even more? since u r de one hu teach us...& woman r nt stupid at all...dey r muck cleverer than man...& y would we wan to go to a gd JC in future using our vball skills instead of our brains? wat's de use if u can't study at all? we dun play vball 4eva...den at de end he said, " our skool is veri gd...we got de most no. of vball court...but oso de most no. of retards..." haiz haiz...keep getting scolded by him...nearly cry juz now...after trainin, i drank my whole water bottle & half of big gulp lor...wanna die...
what we could have been, 5:31 AM.
Dear diary,got moi specs todae...damn ex sia...$250...heart pain...haiz haiz....hahax...muz return moi mum money...muz save save save...juz meet wy after skool...sooo relax sia....can tok to her abt anyting i wan...1 of the best fren i eva had...juz counted de no. of daes moi fren is angry wif me...1 month & 1 dae le...haiz haiz...how long will it take till she forgive me? nvr tok to her liao...afraid lata i sae anyting wrong will make her angry...stress sia...dun wanna lose our frenship lyk tat...but wat can i do? pls save me frm dis cruel world...haiz haiz...
what we could have been, 4:49 AM.
Dear diary,went to sentosa wif moi vball frens todae...damn unlucky lah...lost my specs and moi nike bottle at palawang beach...haiz haiz...spend whole dae at de beach...got sunburn and now my face is damn red lor...can hardly see wat i writing on de com wifout my specs...hahax...but overall it was fun...play vball in the water hahax....hands soooo damn pain after tat coz of de sand...swim in de seawater...SO SALTY SIA!!!! hahax....shld nt hv go home...once i get home, my mom isn't lyk any other mother hu will say " Ginne, how's your day?" dis is wat happened instead....me: MUMMY!!!Mom: dun tell me u lost de underwater world card!!!!me: NO!!! I lost my specs...mom: Very good!!! buy ur specs urself...WTH!!!! went to de toilet & cried lor after tat...so damn hurting...warm? NAH!!! COSY? dun make me laugh...Conclusion? DIS IS NT A WARM & COSY FAMILY!!!! wanna juz fall into a deep slp & nvr wake up again....
what we could have been, 7:11 AM.
Dear diary, saw him todae at the yew tee mrt station...my heart was pounding sooooo fast...he was tokin to his mum while i was tokin to mine...i juz turn around...& i saw him...dunno whether he got saw me anot...haiz haiz....wat exactly is love? y r ppl so so crazy abt it? We never tok to each other now...much less send emails...he looks still ok to me...dunno whether he got gf le mah...he had always been on my mind...and i was nervous when i saw him...mayb it is tym i shld not tink of him anymore...since i dun tink we would ever get together...haiz haiz...totally confused wif my life...when will my prince charming cum along? :( i saw once on a t-shirt, it written,"in love, dere's no fear..." is it really true? i dunno...
what we could have been, 6:49 AM.
Dear diary, yesterday my bro went to NS but i was not at all sad...dunno y leh...he seem to b more lyk a stranger to me then a brother...i hardly speak more than 10 words wif him everydae...he always lock himself in his room or he will cum bac quite late & i will nvr see him...dere was once i nvr seen him for 3-4 daes...when i cum home he not at home...when i go skool he sleeping...so we hardly communicate....oso dunno wat to tok to him abt...still remember when we were young...he would use to piggyback me or let me sit on his back and he will crawl around...but ever since i got into Primary skool, he nvr do tat liao...however we will still play together...and ever since our first computer came he hardly play wif me...he will stared at de computer the whole dae...so as we grow older, we tok leser & lesser and now it looks lyk we r more of stangers than siblings...Any ppl might tink..."wah!!! ur bro going NS, u not sad ah? so heartless..." but how m i suppose to feel sad...we hardly tok or see each other...so it doesn't really make a different whether he is at home or not...haiz haiz...
what we could have been, 10:25 PM.
dear diary,
to me everydae is lyk a routine...dun u tink so? wake up at 5plus everydae to go to skool...prepared myself by 6.15...take de bus to skool...reach dere abt 6.45...rush de remaining homework...then wait for teacher cum in to teach...then after skool go volleyball, tuition or home...at nite do moi hwk...sleep...then wake up nxt morning and start all over again...is tat all moi life is abt? juz a routine? suddenly, i feel sick and tired of all dis... i dun wanna go to skool...i juz wanna b lyk sleeping beauty...wait 4 moi prince charming to cum and save me....and live happily ever after...my life will b full of surprises...no more routine life...i m totally sianz wif it le...haiz haiz...y can't we live happily?
what we could have been, 5:05 AM.
Yoz!!! Hahax...very happy....juz finish watching a new upcuming korean drama...the show veri sweet....the named is called "princess hours"...it is abt sum palance stuff...quite complicated...the ppl tok so slowly...quite chim...but overall it is nice...but i dun reli lyk de ending...hahax...show u all sum pics first...
...tat's all i hv....muz go & find more!!!! tis show is reli very de cool....so it's a muz watch...hehe....wanna watch the whole series another tym...but mum is lending the CD to her frens...haiz haiz...nvm...during sept holis..i will becum a couch potato & finish the series again...tata..gtg le...bb...muack muack...dun miss me... :P
what we could have been, 4:46 AM.
Had i really change?
No I dun tink so...it is juz tat u dun understand me well enough...i tok without going through my head...if a simple joke u can't even take...wat joke can u take in future..it is not as if i play a prank on u...if u can hurt so easily how will u face the challenges in future...ppl will betray u...stab u on ur back...r u going to put de blame on others too...if i hv change to de worst so hv u...u hv bcum so emotional...so petty...u can't even forgive a fren over a simple joke...or wat i the say last tym...I HV NOT CHANGE AT ALL...I hv always been lyk tis all along...even wy can 4give me y can't u..and isn't it worst to hv ur skool own students criticising the clothes than others?even the students doesn't lyk it how can u scold others for not lykin it...if u can't believe in urself...how u let others believe in u? how r u going to face all de criticisms in future....& summore...i didn't mean it seriously...nxt tym all de criticisms toward u will b more hurtful than dis...& if u tink tat my remark is very hurtful...r u going to kill urself if sumone betray u? If u wan to prove tat u r nt weak then do well in the ndp!!! I m nt lyk others...i will juz speak wat i wan...i m nt lyk the kind of ppl who is afraid to hurt ur heart and say nice nice tings to u...if u wan to bcum a stronger person...u shld learn to take all criticisms...If u still can't 4give me...fine!!! I wun take de ndp tickets frm wy anymore...since sooner or lata all de tickets will b wasted on me...
what we could have been, 8:11 PM.
todae went to syf...woohoo Tanjong katong won de competition!!! So damn happy even though i nt frm their skool...hate bowen and deyi....tk is so cool lor...then went to take neos wif moi fren...spend all moi money...then went to take d train...so damn embarrasing lor...de train suddenly stop and i fell onto a guy's lap!!! everyone was staring at me and laughing lor...i quickly stand up & say sorry....then went reach home...saw moi family watching VCD nvr wait for me...then i everytym watch first they scold me...unfair lor...hate them...so damn angry...then when i wan 2 tok to them...all ask me go bathe coz dey dun wan to interupt their show...FINE!!! nxt tym got anyting dun tell them liao...since show is more important...then my other fren scold me lor...say i say their performance sux...but hello? i didn't really mean it lor...can't they take a joke? now i m being hate by her and her classmates...she say de ticket wasted on me...nxt tym better nt say anyting to her liao....keep offending her...and she can stay very angry for a very long tym...i wanna cry...lost a fren juz lyk that...haiz haiz...ok it is all moi fault...i dun wanna live anymore....
what we could have been, 9:37 AM.